i know i shouldn’t post two posts a day, but i just have to share this with you all PRONTO.
i was showing one of my gf how i looked at my worst and.. i realize i didn’t share these photos before.
how could i not?
what time is better than RIGHT NOW? i’ll show you the comparison so you can see for yourself.
5 November 2011, month 8 of withdrawal. this is supposed to be my second flare, also one that lasted for several months. it look worse in flash photography, because it highlighted all the red areas and the dry areas.
if i remember correctly, i just had a sweet scratching time which explains why my eyes lid areas are red, because those skin had fallen off.
thank you, i know i look like a freak here.
i can’t believe some friends of mine can say “you actually don’t look as bad as what you described.”
i guess they will never understand how i felt back then, it’s okay, i don’t blame them.
i wouldn’t want them to go through what i did.
i feel for those who have harlequin ichthyosis.
in december where things have calmed down just a little, and where bloody wounds started to develop.
check out my swollen ear too!
you know what it feels like, it feels like when i just got my ears pierced.
red hot and swollen.
i want to thank myself for picking up the camera to snap photos of myself back then.
usually i will review the photos to see if i’ve framed myself properly, but back then i didn’t even have the courage to do so.
for a few months i couldn’t look at any of the photos i’ve taken because they hurt me just by looking.
but right now i’m totally immuned from it already. 🙂
this is how i look like right now, to give you a better idea of my facial skin.
toyed around with the colours and lightings but did not air brush my skin.
i wore some make up 🙂 but as you can see, it’s smooth as ever.
my brows grew back, so did some of my baby hair.
if i can do it, so can you.
god bless, my skin warriors! ❤
p.s. you might be wondering, if i have already showed you guys my bare face, why do i still bother to censor my eyes with my favourite black rectangles in photos where my skin was bad? IT’S BECAUSE, i don’t want people to recognize the ugly me. 😛 and there is this sadness and helplessness in my eyes that i don’t want anyone to see. i’ve seen it and it looks pathetic. i only want to show you all the confident and happy me. 🙂