now this is a true self portrait!
a thought suddenly hit me just now. it goes something like this..
throughout life we will face many difficulties and hardships, some feels like punishments for something we have not done. the question I asked (for a very time) back then was “why me? what did I do to deserve this?”.
you know what it feels like? it feels like trekking a mountain. the journey is hell of a long and tortuous, I didn’t know how far do I have left.. i also do not know what’s at the peak of the mountain (if I do get there at all). but when I finally made it to the peak, everything suddenly became clear to me.. everything happened so that it will lead me to a better place. and looking at what I have right now, I most definitely did not expect my reward to be SO PRECIOUS when I was still in the midst of TSW. damn, I feel like I just stroke the lottery.. life’s lottery!
it’s easy to fall prey to the negativity that TSW brings about because I was surrounded by nothing but some filthy, dark and muddy valleys.. everything around me is just so dead. slowly but surely, with a little progress each day, it has accumulated into a huge progress over 2 odd years..
everything happens for a reason. for me, TSW was merely setting the stage for bigger and more wonderful things to happen in my life. it made me rethink life, re-prioritize what’s truly important, and eventually make room in me to receive again.
and because I have received, I can now give. to all the skin warriors who’re still in that valley of death/road to mordor, you will be rewarded with something so many magnitudes greater than you can ever imagine.
now I have found the answer to my question. I hope you will find yours soon.
stay strong, and god bless.