couldn’t think of a more enticing title for the post!
as i continue mining (through my laptop), i found some photos i took between december 2012 (month 20) and february 2013 (month 22).
i would consider my skin to be at the late stage of TSW during those period of time.
i didn’t take much documentation photos after february because my skin looks increasingly normal, there isn’t much point in documenting those.
too bad, i really didn’t document how my skin looked like between between may 2012 (month 13) all the way till november 2012 (month 19).
those lost times i can’t recover!!!
even if there’s a time machine i wouldn’t go back in time just so that i can take photos of my skin though, sorry guys,
i’m not THAT selfless. hahaha!
just keep in mind that my skin during those times are just really red and dry. the bloody wounds have healed more or less. i have papery skin all over me. i’m just recalling this off my head. if you want to see how i described them in detail (if i did) you can check out my monthly updates back then. it’s under the steroid withdrawal category.
you have to use a little bit of your imagination to translate those words into mental images though.
i’ve mentioned this before, the reason why i didn’t take photos during those times is hugely due to:
1) skin looking the same most of the time, i can’t see significant differences.
2) feeling too depressed.
3) what’s the point of take the self shots but not being able to review it? i wouldn’t know if they’re in focus.
4) just excuses for me not wanting to take any photos because of point number 2.
5) my camera can’t capture a lot of details in my skin unless i add on a macro lens.
some of the photos i’ve already posted under the “photos” page, but some are newly unearthed. photos are enlargeable so you can see more of the details (just click on the image! i’ve painfully linked each of them one by one manually! i insist you click on them. hahaha!)
5 january 2013, month 21.
– mild redness/rashes on cheeks.
– pigmentation spots that surfaced spontaneously. they fade away (slowly) with time.
– a little bump. i had a number of bumps on my face that’re just filled with liquid. i suggest you not to pick on them if you have it too because it left a dark pigmentation (different from the spontaneous ones mentioned above) on my skin that took so many months for it to fade away. you can pick anywhere but your face, you hear me?
14 january 2013, month 22.
– same description as above.
– there’s a clear line between my palms and my wrist. the demarcation of the red skin! there used to be a little rash that tried to cross boundary into my palms but it didn’t make it too far into the land of the palms. thankfully!
17 january 2013, month 22.
– darker skin tone on neck. makes me look like i applied a wrong shade of foundation on my face when i didn’t apply any at all!
– looks SO MUCH BETTER than in december, right??? those dry skin seems non existent anymore.
12 february 2013, month 23
– patchy neck. when i see that it’s patchy i know that my fair skin is returning to me. i know it makes the red parts more obvious but look at the bright side! it means the red patches are shrinking and no longer covering my entire body!
so that’s all the skin photos i can find during those periods.
after february, 99% of the photos i took are self shots of my face because i had to make up for lost time. hahaha!
i still consider my 20th to 22nd month part of TSW because it doesn’t look like the typical eczematic rashes that i used to grow up with.
i tried to churn out this post after knowing how some of you try to peg your healing journey to mine by reading through my monthly documentation. sadly, i haven’t been courageous enough to review my photos and publish them on a monthly basis along with my description of how i felt and how my skin felt back then. on hindsight, it would have been so much more helpful if i did that.
till this day, i still feel remotely shocked and disgusted by my own photos i took last time, i can’t bring myself to look at them while still having bad skin – it makes me more depressed than i already was if i did. with that said, there’re a bunch of unorganized photos in the photos page which i’m trying to re-organize into a more systematic page. give me some time to work on that!
on the bright side, if you’re in the beginning TSW stage, you now know what to look forward to in order to know you’re at the end of the journey. if you’ve identified yourself to be in the later TSW stage (because your skin resembled mine), i think it’s safe to say you’re not too far from the end of the journey!
good luck and stay strong my fellow skin friends!