before i go any further, i’d like to assure you that my skin is still fine and alright.
i just didn’t feel like meeting people – especially my relatives.
this feel a lot like when i was still in the bad stages of my TSW.
i recall shying away from people at all costs, locking myself in my room whenever someone comes up, rejecting all requests to meet me outside (wtf are you crazy for asking me out in this state!?)
and then it reminded me why i didn’t want to see anyone in the first place,
because i really just didn’t want to make futile explanations to people when they won’t accept it at the end of the day.
worst of all, trying to push me back to the conventional treatment of skin dermatitis, which would mean steroids.
it’s a different context for me right now though, even though it still involves me going against the conventional flow, which is why it’s getting on my nerves whenever i do meet relatives, because they’ll always ask questions that makes me feel like i’m being judged for doing something wrong (in their books).
i’m not doing something wrong.
i’m just doing something DIFFERENT.
something that they can’t understand (yet), but i’ll show it to them once i have some results,
just like how i was able to convince my family that TSW is real by healing with no medical intervention.
surprisingly, i always thought that i never bothered to explain myself about TSW in the past because i didn’t have the energy and effort to do so, turns out.. i really just can’t be friggin’ bothered to waste another breath on them.
to those of you who’re still feeling the pinch by people who don’t understand TSW, i feel you.
but trust me, it feels really good when you prove them otherwise 😉
i’m here to remind you what i constantly remind myself – don’t ever stop believing.
you may be having a bad time right now, a rough night, a sleepless night, the going gets tough, the tough will get going soon.
that’s me from a few days ago btw, you’ll be on the top of the TSW mountain soon, together with me, and all the others who have made it past that hell and is living a life again.
p.s. taking a break from scientific sunday for today, i feel utterly exhausted this week. been sleeping so much today 😀 hope everyone’s having a good weekend!