15 march 2014
for the past 3 days, my skin has been feeling close to perfect.
no need for moisturizing in the morning.
the previously dried patches on my neck, arm, thigh, abdomen are all baby smooth right now.
i think it’s the end of the 3 months cycle.
this cycle was a little longer than expected, but whatever,
it’s slowly dying down.
why do i not attribute it to my hormones?
because i have observed this general improvement over the past three months even though my hormones fluctuated every month.
but then again, the particular smooth and hydrated skin might be related to the increase in estrogen.
i’ll write a separate entry on that next time 😉
just embracing the good skin (like touching my arms more than ever to remind myself IT’S NOT A DREAM) right now, because i know that the healing is not done yet.
that shiny (atrophied) skin.. *squint*
24 march 2014
i can totally tell what’s going on in my body because..
the dry skin is back this week!
skin is more sensitive too!
but the rashes weren’t particularly agitated.
this goes to confirm that the cycles are ceasing soon 😉
not much to update about. skin is pretty constant.
no marked worsening or improvements after mentioning about them the previous time.
6 april 2014
so little updates for this month because my skin feels normal and good.
it was drier a week ago due to hormones, but it wasn’t as dry as it was as compared to a month ago. there is gradual overall improvements that i can actually see 🙂
the rashes on my thighs are clearing up bit by bit. they aren’t red anymore. pigmentations are slowly fading. dry spots are diminishing. skin is getting increasingly smooth once more.
but lately, a rash came back to above my lips. i can feel the slight difference in texture there, and when i perspire it will irritate it. it feels slightly rough, and it changes skin every few days.
other than that, i seem to be having more clogged pores than usual of late.
perspiration is still crazy, not sure if i’m supposed to blame the weather or just the over active sweat glands that are still parading after they are no longer oppressed by topical steroids.
my sleep has been a little weird too. is it just my bad habits?
i’m going to start a detox soon.
been feeding my body with too much crap ever since christmas.
everything will be better if i eat better.
“you are what you eat”.
11 april 2014
skin is still good. there’s no need for moisturizing in the morning, and sometimes i find myself skipping out on moisturizing before i head out too.
some rashes are leaving while some are still staying.
let’s start with some photos!
those 3 spots are GONE! last month those 3 spots still appeared to have shiny skin, they’re all gone by now.
raised patches aren’t raised naymore. pigmentation is slowly fading, i feel less and less as a leopard as the days go by.
my arms are still having a few active rash that lives a 3 days cycle. it itches a little more on one day, and over the next few days it will calm down and then.. repeat itself again. i’m not surprised my arm are still having issues as this was the very first place i started using steroids on. yesterday night that rash was a little swollen as i’ve scratched it, but it has flattened out today.
last month my finger cracked, and there were many visible vesicles underneath my fingertip. this month, the skin there has thickened and i can’t see anymore vesicles. no more cracks, and waiting for my fingernail plate to recover (so that the nails will grow back normally. it does grow back eventually, trust me. my pinkie and middle finger’s fingernail experienced the same thing a few years back, they look perfectly normal now). that weird patch of bad skin above my middle finger’s cuticle is also gone.
no idea why my skin is two toned. my legs are really fair, just the way they used to be.. but my arms. =_=
and now to list down the parts where my rashes are still active,
areas above my lips,
and my neck.
i used a hell lot of steroids on my neck last time, and the skin on the neck area are thinner than the body.. so.. 😦 i hope it heals up soon. it was fine last month, but for the past few days it’s getting rougher and redder than usual. sometimes i wake up with visible dryness on those areas.
the rash on my lips isn’t too visible most of the time unless i perspire. it irritates it and it actually stings. 😦
that rash on my feet is subsiding slooowwwwlllyyyy.
not sure if i mentioned this the last month.
maybe i didn’t, because i wanted to see if this thing lasts..
but.. MY ABDOMEN IS CLEAR!!! and it has stayed this way.
no more bumpy skin (seems like the hair follicles hardened or something~), no more rough skin, no more itchy skin there.
the skin is still relatively darker than my normal skin tone, but much lighter than a few months ago when it was still rough.
thighs are smooth too, as you can see from the picture, there’re no bumpy parts like before. just some darn pigmentations that have turned from a tint of dark reddish brown to a light orangey/yellowish brown.
I MUST STOP PICKING MY FACE.
those clogged pores are bothering me because i love clearing them.
some of those pores don’t care about me evacuating them.
but some take revenge on me by getting inflammed, which results in a friggin bump that takes a few days to heal.
MUST. RESIST. SQUEEZING. THE. SHIT. OUT. OF. IT.
ON A SIDE NOTE, I’M 3 YEARS OFF STEROIDS TODAY.
well. till now, i have no idea when was the exact day i stopped steroids because i did that accidentally. whatever!
this is the first photo that i took that started off my documentation process. it was in may because i took an entire month to accept that i have withdrawals and decided that the least i could to do comfort myself is to record down my skin’s progress so that when i look back, i know i have healed for sure.
one of the best decisions i have ever made.
the only thing i regret was not taking more photos during my really depressed days (which was the later stages of my withdrawal process). but i guess it don’t matter anymore, because what’s most important is that everyone else can now see that i have healed.
this is me from yesterday 🙂
don’t lose hope, hang on to whatever support you have and wait it through. the TSW journey WILL end, and soon you’ll be free like me 🙂