21 september 2014
so yesterday i noticed some dry skin around my mouth area. i guess they’re remnant skin from the slightly irritated skin from a few days ago.
noticed some itching one night, but it quickly dissipated (thank god) and i fell asleep.
i may have overloaded on my sugar intake too much 😛 moon cakesssssss YESSSSSSSS.
i have a few little bumps on my face.
neck feels dry.
so does my arm folds (because i scratched them a little too much i think?)
my legs have been doing well, other than them looking a little patchy (just very slightly), they feel smooth and great. i’ve been wearing shorts lately 😀 if people ask, i’ll just say i’m in love with leopard prints so i have them on my skin too.
i’m pretty sure my neck is going through it’s own healing cycles for the past few months. i did slather lots of steroids there, FML. a few months back, there were these little round spots that would scab over and over again. now they’re gone, it’s just general dryness.
that’s all for now.
10 october 2014
i don’t feel too good right now. this reminds me too much of the start of my withdrawals, it’s kinda freaking me out.
i’ve had a pretty bad week – got the worst possible shock in my life thus far, PMS, pretty bad air and hot weather, and everything just crumbled and now my skin is a total bitch.
i admit i dealt the damage to myself, because i find myself scratching a lot more this week. my neck is a gone case for now, it resembles my neck from month 20+. hahaha good lord, wtf is this?
just how fucking long does it take for the skin to heal from steroid damage? fucking hell.
there were several nights when i can’t fall asleep. you know the lack of sleep always make my skin feel worse. i actually wake up feeling so dry for the past few days.
how can i not be reminded of those hellish days?
the thought of “i’ve been through this before and it went away, i’m sure it will go away this time too” is keeping me sane. not crying yet. just pretty damn helpless that 3 years after steroid cessation, my skin still isn’t fully healed yet.
and FYI, i haven’t been using moisturizers on my neck for the past 6 months. so please, don’t rub it in by telling me “i told you so~ moisturizers are stopping you from healing.”. not sure if anyone is as mean as that, but i thought i’d take a precautionary step first.
i can’t help but want to point fingers to elomet, that very last steroids that worked on my skin, because it seems like the areas that’re flaring up now are places where i’ve used that shit.
the last time the area around my lips flared was 6 months ago, sometime in april.
it freaking hurts when i perspire.
i’m almost exhausted of my positive energy. had a few bad dreams and woke up feeling the remnant feelings. it wasn’t good.
i just want to stop scratching and let my skin do what it does best – healing.
i’ll murder some peeps (we all know who they are) in my dream tonight maybe. slow death by elomet withdrawal, i’ll just watch them die real slow, literally “having a taste of their own medicine”.
all the rants aside,
1. skin is red, dry and thicker than usual
2. flaking daily from those irritated parts
3. lip area is dry, lips are sensitive and feels like there are little vesicles around (NOT sores)
4. left cheek is dry and rashy
5. neck is deep red, dry and rough
6. upper chest is speckled with dark red patches. FML.
7. inner elbow has red patches too from the scratchings
8. can’t sleep at night
9. wake up feeling dryyyy
10. tore some skin on my scalp and now it’s oozing. =_=
11. swollen eyes, again!
feels like i am having some systemic inflammation because my body appears to be more sensitive than usual.
sigh. ghost from the past is haunting me again. the fear of falling back into that frame of thought is more scary than the skin actually.
photos taken in the past 3 days.
GAHHHH. whatever. this is just like in april.
it’ll go again, let’s see how long it takes this time.
on the other hand, such is the long lasting damage of steroids.
i should have know better.