as the months stack up, i’m beginning to lose count of the months off steroids.
i never saw that coming. i used to believe i’ll NEVER EVER forget a single thing – which includes the pain, sadness, depression, torture and everything i experienced – for life. reality says otherwise.
another month has gone past, i’ve made some progress in my latest flare. while the situation still look kinda horrible, if not, worse than before, this is some sort of progress as i know i’m moving along and heading towards good skin again.
sleep has been a problem for me for the past 2 weeks, i just can’t sleep soundly. last night i slept for an hour before waking up in the dead of the night (3am yo, the most evil hour?). thankfully i managed to fall back asleep around 6am.
rashy area on my scalp is oozing again, they have been moving around too – the original spot isn’t there, but a few others have sprung up around it instead.
my face is pink generally right now. lots of flaking. forehead shedding thicker skin now. lip area is still fragile, but doesn’t crack open as much as it used to a month ago.
skin on my neck has improved a little, with the exception of steroid damaged spots. the initial rash on my upper chest are now gone, but the skin there isn’t optimal yet.
rashes on my hands seem to be subsiding very slowly, however my cuticle on a few fingers are still pretty much swollen and scaling. they’re much better though, they used to shed daily, resulting in very oozy fingers.
in other news, body is very prone to hyper pigmentation now. my elbow and knee joints are weak and hurting. 😦
more rashes seem to be appearing on my feet!? they’re minor though. i foresee them gone within a few weeks.
no signs of “bloody wounds” though, THANK GOD!
so that’s it, 2 months into my latest flare.
other miscellaneous stuff:
can’t help but link my runny nose, neck ache, and tooth ache together. they hit me 2 weeks ago and took about a week to subside. well, my nose has been running for the past few months to be exact. it was a symptom that i never really mentioned before. as for the tooth ache, it’s my wisdom tooth trying to break free from my gums. that low level pain that hits me when i eat makes me contemplate running a knife over my gums to relief the building pressure. just a thought though.
i can be sure right now that my neck ache is NOT caused by me using my laptop for too long. it must be some sort of inflammation within my body.
my body is weird.
i wonder how will things unfold in another month’s time! taking it one month at a time 🙂
stay strong everyone. don’t stop believing.