looks like i’m a day late in posting this!
what a difference a few days can make!
just 2 days ago it’s 2014, and now it’s 2015!
speaking of which, my skin also went downhill within the past few days.
it’s just cycle 6 or 7 coming along, saying hi to me.
it’ll pass, i know 😉
3 years ago when i first went through TSW, i thought my life is coming to an end.
all the things i have enjoyed had to be stopped abruptly,
things that make me “have a life” like going out, partying with friends, going to school, BLAH.
this time round, i am starting to see this flare as an opportunity for me to change directions in my life.
i’ve read stories of people who created something successful because they were stricken with a situation that forced them to put a pause on what they’ve been doing. if not for the accidents, they wouldn’t have taken that path.
blessing in disguise? damn right!
over the years, i’ve learnt how the environment can easily influence our decisions.
for example, if everything was going semi smoothly, i wouldn’t bother to find a better solution until things break down.
perhaps this “skin holiday” right now is exactly what i need to move on to a different sector of my life, where i have more free time and solitude to think through my options so i can make better decisions when i ultimately have to.
free from my previous obligations and responsibilities, i am able to pick up new skill sets and slowly hone them without the pressure that would have built up easily back then when i have to toggle between my different identities. research and experimentation (not just talking about science research, i mean acquiring new knowledge and information) takes time to ingest and digest, and i’m blessed to have all these right now.
and most importantly, it is serving as a little spiritual retreat where i get in touch with myself again. it’s easy to let the hustle and bustle in life erode my relationship with myself, where i simply neglect myself because everything else is sapping my attention and energy. this is the best time to recuperate, reconnect and realign my thoughts and mind.
i hope i didn’t sound like a crazy person talking about spiritual wellness and mindfulness. it may sound really abstract looking at what i just wrote, but in simpler terms, i’m just trying to help my mind come to terms with reality in the simplest and smoothest way possible.
our minds will always try to find reasons to justify reality. in my distorted understanding of the reality that doesn’t really make sense, i can find inner peace as my brain manages to piece everything into a story that actually makes sense.
i said my understanding is “distorted” because what’s happening in reality may not be how i’m perceiving it in my mind. it’s how i perceive the world that ultimately makes a difference in my world. the same event can be perceived different by everyone, i simply choose to perceive it in a way that will cause the least ripples (instead of it becoming a tsunami) in my life.
i hope you can find peace too.
may 2015 be a year of growth and healing to each and everyone of us 🙂