6 march 2015
skin was pretty calm for 1+ week, right now it’s slightly blotchy again. i felt it coming. i would itch more at night when i’m in another cycle. my fingers are also more oozy as compared to a week ago when they showed signs of flattening and healing.
scalp is clear.
face and neck is going through cycles, but eyes are not swollen for good anymore. lip area is still fragile, as well as my lower half of my face.
upper chest has smoothened out after a rashy episode last month. so is my abdomen.
i notice some hives when i scratch part of my skin. no biggie as they go away within an hour.
hand was angry the past few weeks, red and dry patches of raised skin. seems to be dying out now.
legs are smooth, but feel itchier these few days?
sleep has shifted an hour later naturally. i was waking up around 7.30am when i just started the vitamin D, now i wake around 9.30-10am for some reason if left to my own devise. sleeping more than 7 hours has become a cause of worry for me because i clearly did not incur any sleep debts that require “paying”. additional sleep has become a sign of inflammation within my body.
8 March 2015
so now my calmer period has lengthened to 2 weeks as opposed to just 1 week a while ago. going through another cycle now! boo! but it’ll be better after!
gotta remind myself to stay strong too.
15 march 2015
totally forgot to update.
went into another flare since a week ago. i used the word flare this time because it’s not the same old cycles i’ve been experiencing on selected parts of my body.
this time it’s another full body itch fest, it took a few days to build up to an intensity that i finally observed. could have been simmering in the background without my knowledge for all i know.
i don’t itch spontaneously, but if i start scratching a normal place that doesn’t have rashes, i feel an itch to keep scratching. hives soon follow, and i get little red dots all over me now hahaha fuck this shit i feel like this is how chicken pox look like.
rashy parts are raised, showing signs of oozing if it do get worse. scratching certain parts will produce a slight moist feeling on my fingers, not a full on ooze fest yet. face looks like how i begun my flare a few months ago.
sometimes i think it’s futile trying to find reason in a world of chaos. i either have to let go of my need to know, or to keep looking for new suggestions as to what caused everything.
i did notice some accompanying symptoms this time round – dry and painful throat, aching tooth (my wisdom tooth is emerging, but it doesn’t hurt normally.). my tooth ache has been observed several times when my skin do get worse, so perhaps they’re related.
sleep is getting weird again, as expected.
this feels more like eczema this time round because of the addition of something new (compared to my flare in october/november) – hives. but i’ll never know. whatever it is, i’m still trying out different things trying to make things better. it did get a lot better at the start of march! so i’m still very hopeful that whatever pain i’m going through right now is only going to be temporary.
whatever caused my flare this time round, it’s probably not related to the food that i’ve already cut out of my diet – dairy, eggs, soy, wheat and refined sugar. i have no intention of gorging on wheat or sugar products though. at least i now know that i can eat those items in small quantities without worrying about the state of my skin. sometimes wheat is unavoidable, and my food exclusion has proved to be a minor inconvenience to people around me.
maybe it’s “heatiness” that is described in TCM. so i’ll be trying that next 🙂