time seem to have slowed down for me again, because i’m not filling up my time with meaningful task.
guilty as charged.
i finally made it through another month, and it’s also my first month back on my old TCM medication.
i’m finally uploading some photos this month because..
i know for a fact things are gonna get better with time, i don’t have to worry about you guys feeling upset seeing my skin behaving badly again.
23 january 2016
skin went from super crazy to less crazy over the past 2 weeks.
the week prior to my period was the worse, then it took another week to ease into a calmer state.
my skin was super dry and flaked daily. holy cow.
skin is tight every morning 😦 even my arms and legs were flaking.
but now, it’s a lot smoother and doesn’t shed that crazily.
the skin is still thin,
good news is i can sweat, and i intend to start some low level exercises that won’t burden my heart that much because my heart rate is 80 per minute at rest. that’s kind of high imo.
skin integrity is continuing to improve daily,
it’s less likely to be torn apart when i do scratch, so that’s another good news.
skin on my wrist and ankle are looking elephanty again,
but that’s also a good sign because it means it’s nearing the end of the cycle.
2 february 2016
i have moments of weakness too.
for some reason today, i’m feeling frustrated about the overall state of my skin is in.
deep within me, i’m still hoping to recover within a short period of time, which goes against reality, which is the reason why i’m feeling frustrated in the first place.
not because my body isn’t getting any better, but because i expect myself to get better by now, but reality says otherwise.
focusing on my skin on a daily basis isn’t doing me good at all.
isn’t it funny how i look back at my photos taken a few months prior,
and i wonder “wow my skin looked so much better then”, even though i remember very distinctly that i thought my skin wasn’t that great at the point in time.
i guess i’m just feeling pretty down right now even though my skin is not at its worst.
no idea how long this will stretch but i have to be more patient.
plus, this phase of lows will highlight the highs later on, right?
it just sucks to be in the midst of it.
12 february 2016
i’m really happy to have made it through the month.
after the bout of mood swing (could have been PMS too), i’m feeling a lot better.
my skin still cycles through calm and angry days, it’s about a week long of feeling like shit and then a few days of peace.
over the past month, the most drastic change is the decrease in dryness on my limbs.
my arms and calves aren’t rough and sandpaper like most of the days.
even when it do shed, the skin is thin flakes instead of the slightly thicker skin.
the redness have eased and is clearly diminishing,
hence the return of the blotchiness because what was previously an evenly red skin is now showing some of my original fair skin again 🙂
while seeing the blotchy parts suck because of the contrast against my original skin colour,
it’s good to know that things are moving along and easing towards the right direction.
the difference is pretty obvious on my face and upper chest. it’s just not glowing in red anymore.
the skin that sheds every morning have changed in consistency as well.
a month ago the shedded skin is noticeably thicker, and leaves my new skin pretty raw after i get rid of them in my shower.
my new skin would be pretty plasticky after it dried out too, YUCK.
by now, i shed thin skin flakes in the morning. while my new skin is still very fragile, it is not longer raw after shedding.
the area that shed the most is my forehead and chin area.
my neck has improved dramatically, the shedded skin also went from thick to thin over the month,
and the integrity of the new skin is improving.
it just look blotchy, which should resolve in another month or so.
the skin on my upper chest used to be dried out and shiny looking, it’s continuing to make progress.
let’s just say it’s very comforting to see what looks like my breast at the age of 60 returning to life (HAHAHAHHA the skin was so wrinkly last month… i clearly exaggerated but you get the idea)
these spots on my right palm is starting to clear.
they were raised and shed skin daily before, but now, the skin stays on for a few days before drying out and flaking off.
still a few more cycles to go before it’s completely gone though.
i can still see some vesicles underneath my skin.
but yea, even though the photos might have a slightly different white balance setting,
the redness is reduced by quite a lot.
as for my feet, not there yet, but getting there.
decreased redness, but skin is still pretty damn fucked up because i can’t stop scratching it.
fuck my life! i’m trying not to scratch!
my skin is still pretty dry and thin in general.
i noticed little itch fest that last anywhere from 10 minutes to hours.
if i can resist scratching, it’ll just feel like my nerves are super irritated because i need to constantly move my body to soothe the nerve.
if it hits me during sleep, then.. god bless my skin.
sleep has been odd again.
before my period, i can’t fall asleep till 4am!? and i can’t sleep long either!?
after my period, i knock out a lot earlier.
personal best timing is 10pm, but that wasn’t the norm. even though i hope it is.
i also went to visit my doctor today since i’ve finished last month’s medication.
it’s always reassuring when my doctor tells me that my health isn’t as bad as i thought it was.
he made sure to ask me about my menstrual cycle and if i had any cramps (which i never did, lucky me!),
to which he say it’s a good sign of health that i don’t have menstrual cramps.
in fact, it means i’m actually pretty healthy,
except for the fact that my body can’t “detox” that efficiently, that’s why it has to do it through my skin..
and because i have a predisposition for eczema, my skin becomes inflamed.
i discussed other possible solutions to nib the problem at its root,
so i asked what caused the toxins in my body in the first place, and his answer was what i had in mind – food.
chinese has a saying that diseases are introduced from the mouth.
which only urges me to start preparing for a leaky gut diet,
preferably with lesser or no meat.
one month down, i can’t wait to see how much my skin improve by the end of my 2nd month of medication.
reminder to self: my skin can look pretty good on a calm day.
stay strong everyone!