[brain fart] happy to smile

there are days when i find it easy to laugh,
and days that i just can’t find my laughter even when i saw something funny.

as of the past few weeks, i noticed that whenever my lips are going through a cycle,
by that i mean drying out, tightening of the skin, shedding, and cracking open,
whenever the ability to smile is limited,
i feel worse.

even looking at cute animal photos and videos doesn’t ellicit so much as a giggle.
what’s wrong with me!?

then i remember this little fact that said the act of smiling can make you feel happy.
surprising isn’t it?
usually, we smile when we feel happy,
but the opposite is true too!
we can influence our emotions with our physical behaviour.

unfortunately, the area around my lips happened to be areas i used plenty of steroids on.
elomet in particular.
i think it’ll be several more cycles before it will get back to normal.

till then, i’ll try to savour every moment when i can actually smile.
i can get away with 1 or 2 days of flexible skin near my lips that allows me to smile.
i’ll just have to smile harder during those days to stock up on my happiness level i suppose?

if it works that way, that is.

 

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2 thoughts on “[brain fart] happy to smile

  1. Hi Juliana,

    Long time since I last wrote. How many months TSW are you in now? I am entering 13 months and have begun to discover life again. My neck still itches when I sweat and looks like a recovering burn victim (on a bad day). Under my thighs still itch and micro flake. My legs still have very uneven skin tone with faint reptile dry skin marks, that my dermatologist says AmLactin should help.

    I just wanted to tell you that I am so proud to know someone like you who has dared to take the harder path of TSW. You are closer than you think to complete withdrawal. Please keep smiling because, YES, the act of smiling makes us happier. You are beautiful no matter what, but you shine when you smile!

    Aloha, KJ in Hawaii

    On Mon, Feb 13, 2017 at 11:55 PM, juliana’s topical steroid withdrawal journey wrote:

    > juliana posted: “there are days when i find it easy to laugh, and days > that i just can’t find my laughter even when i saw something funny. as of > the past few weeks, i noticed that whenever my lips are going through a > cycle, by that i mean drying out, tightening of th” >

    • hello kj!

      thanks for your sweet comment, that did put a smile on my face 🙂 i’m glad to know you’re discovering life again. may this new found appreciation bring you a lot of joy you’ve never known!

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